Heh, it’s because everything outside of where I am is where I want to be and it’s slowly becoming more and more apparent that I’m not getting any closer to a future where I want to be.
I keep setting these goals and milestones yet don’t seem to get any closer.
I’m an autistic compulsive liar that can barely finish a project and constantly writes large and extravagant stories to get lost in in order to forget about how I’m just not into this reality anymore.
Maybe I just hate everyone.
Maybe this album will suck.
Maybe nothing will ever change.
I just want to get out of this specific situation.