I’m glad and thankful for that. Really, thanks!

I also just fear that I’m just completely irrelevant when it comes to my works.

I post a thing I spend hours on and it gets less than 50 views, compiling the idea that, in the fandom, I’m just that awkward stage right after obscurity and right before recognition where I just barely reach the personal threshold to compose a track, only to be disregarded and forgotten about a few hours after it has been posted.

I’ve always heard of the whole “do it because you want to, not because others” thing, and I do, but it’d be nice to have a little recognition once in awhile for something that I put so much effort into. I’d love to be included in shows, in conventions, and not have to personally pay to schlep all my crap out there and get hotels.

It’s gotten better, convention-wise. They’re helping out with hotels, now, but I’d like a little more effort put in, if possible. It’s really not easy being a starving musician nearly outta college. I’ve got $187k worth of student loan debt on my head, it’d help if I had a plane ticket or something.

I wish I was able to hold a fundraiser to go to a place, but I wouldn’t feel right doing so, because I’m probably going to do it anyway regardless if I got any funds, and I can’t take people’s hard earned cash like that. I don’t even charge for my albums. Does anyone else still do that?